Last night I went to Shambar, a Belgian restaurant, and drank a bunch of yummy beer. I have to remember that, at a certain point, I don't want to see people trying to hook up and must remove myself as quickly as possible at that point. Happiness in others frustrates me more than I want to admit, largely due to jealousy and envy.
By the time I got home I was feeling pretty down. The weather, the circumstances of recent weeks, the impending doom with unfinished assignments... whatever it was, I didn't want to be alone. I made some phone calls, talked to a few people, and luckily got ahold of Tangiene. She came over for a bit on the condition that we would have to talk in my bed because my bed is comforting and that's what I wanted. We had a good catch-up and it made me want to plan a slumber party because it was fun to giggle in bed with a sweet friend. And who doesn't want to giggle in bed once in a while?
Weeks of neglect have made me bashful about phoning people to reconnect. I feel like a negligent letter-writer: I have much to say, have started conversations in my head, but haven't been able to get it all down on paper enough to send; just clips and partially-completed thoughts, none of which make up enough of a cohesive conversation to make me follow through with the sending of ideas. I suspect this means I have to have a party once school is over this term so I can feel less of a heel and more of a socializer with those that I haven't seen/talked to much since school started. I hope it isn't too late.
Off to work.
Currently listening :
Sambassadeur
By Sambassadeur
Release date: 13 September, 2005
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