the deal with boys?

I retract my statement about JJ Jellybean.

This morning I discovered that a friend that stopped speaking to me in February was signed on to IM. Surprised, I sent a tenative message to see if he was really there because I couldn't believe it. (I haven't seen him on since we stopped talking. Ever.) We wound up IMing for quite a while, catching up a little bit, getting some stuff sorted out and in the open. It was a relief, really, on top of being pretty exciting. I've missed him so much, yet resigned myself to the fact that we probably would never speak again. It sounded like he was feeling the same way, and perhaps moreso lately. So now we've made a pact to try to talk regularly again and I hope it happens. I'm not a fan of losing people I care about. And I especially hate losing the same person more than once.

This fall has been strange for me with boys. Men, if you prefer. All kinds of unexpected surprises, these boys. Now I just need to start getting declarations of love from the boys I had crushes on from the time I was 12 to complete the circle. Can't explain what changed because I'm not convinced it's me. Distraction seems to be somehow attractive, I guess.

Oh, I'm so super excited because Darcy will be visiting in just a few weeks! Good times! It will be just before the very end of school, when classes are done and just two assignments need finishing (though I'm hoping to be done by then). Haven't gotten tickets to the show he wants to see (they didn't have them at Scratch, D.), so will need to figure this out somehow soon or get my ass kicked.

I am also starting to adore a few of my classmates, much more than I thought I would. So close to being friends outside of school, too. Making friends as an adult is pretty satisfying.

Currently listening :
Universal Audio
By The Delgados
Release date: 28 September, 2004