Despite adoring my girl friends, I realise that I seem to be collecting more and more boy friends as of late. This I find weird because boys aren't interested in me enough to date me, yet want to be my friend and spend loads of time with me. I don't get it. But, then again, I've never understood the male mind.
Lately I've been talking to a friend from out of town a fair bit. I'm not sure why he's talking to me at midnight instead of his girlfriend, but I am not the one who needs to censor my time and I'm unwilling to play den mother on this. If I could figure out that "thing" that makes me interesting to a point and just expand it a little... Or I could do nothing but be me and assume that, at some point, one of these boys will figure it out on his own.
I was watching a movie on the weekend, likely "Some Kind Of Wonderful," and there was a line about it all being over when you give up hope that you're going to find that one person. Why had I never realised how deep and poetic John Hughes films are? Had I taken to heart more firmly the lessons from teen movies from the '80s... Imagine how different my life could be.
My friend suggested I try to figure out how to get invited to sausage parties or to start becoming friends with people who work in male-dominated fields. I have no idea how one does that. He was no help, either. Any ideas?
I suspect, as Stephin Merritt suggests, I am unboyfriendable. This doesn't upset me as much as it once did.
Next week I'm starting my second semester of school and am a little freaked out. I've been counting credits, trying to figure out how I can finish this degree in the suggested time without cutting back on work and maybe getting another baby librarian job to boot. I'll just go full-force as much as I can and see what happens. I realised that last semester only got stupid after I started messing around with my personal life, but that situation has since ended so it might be easier this term. We'll see.
This Saturday I'm going on a tour of the Pantages Theatre! So exciting!
Currently listening :
Planets Conspire
By Meligrove Band
Release date: 17 August, 2006
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