since 1670

Sometimes I don't make much sense. I don't always understand what I'm thinking when I make certain decisions, even after reflection and trips to my counsellor. Lately I've regretted little, choosing instead to revel in my decisions, regardless how detrimental they probably are to me. Girl's gotta learn somehow. Or not.

I may have done something silly. The criteria to make such a declaration has not been fully thought out, but I suspect it may have been an odd decision. I can rationalise almost anything, and even though I like to have things planned out, the times that I change my mind at the last minute and alter my plans I almost always make bizarre decisions.

For Christmas I got a gift card for the Bay, to be spent on any number of the housewares I suggested as possible gifts. Admittedly, I suspect I'm difficult to buy for because I'm very black and white about stuff, either liking gifts immediately and fully or wondering how I can return something and get something I like. Most friends have figured out what I like, but my family never learned, likely because I bought my own Christmas presents off and on from ages 10 to about 25 (I bought, they paid me back after Christmas).

Today I decided to use the gift card for a Bodum and a good knife for the kitchen. When I got into the Bay I was automatically drawn to the Signature display set up near the door, with signage screaming "50% off." I like the idea of Bay coats and have dreamt about those Bay stripes since I was a young child. When I came back from Japan I saw a sale on Bay blankets and bought one for myself for Christmas, at that time one of the most expensive things I'd ever bought for myself. I only half-heartedly looked at the coats, knowing that half of $800 is still way more than I can spend on a coat. I wasn't even looking at the blankets much because I've already got one and I can't really afford those suckers, either. But then... then I saw one for 75% off and I forgot about the Bodum and the knife.

I got a 4-point Bay blanket for $59 once the gift card was deducted. Holy crap, I'm excited. Mental note: visit the Bay at the end of the season for discontinued colours. Now, if only they'd heavily discount china... I couldn't even go to the china department because in the state that I was in I knew I could walk away with a few place settings. Place settings...