worrywort

How does one stop worrying?

Today I signed a lease for an apartment and less than an hour later worried that I made a mistake. I felt a little pressured to make a decision at the second viewing, but the second viewing really did alleviate most of the concerns that woke me up at 5am this morning. I felt OK as I wrote a year's worth of cheques. Still, looking at another apartment after the lease was signed was a bad move, as it made me think the cheaper rent was worth the different neighbourhood.

The place I decided on is about what I felt I could afford if I work consistently, though will go up if/when they renovate the kitchen, which isn't necessarily a bad thing (it would mean I get a dishwasher again and the kitchen would fit the rest of the apartment better). It's a decent size with a seemingly appropriate amount of storage and loads of windows for light (something I suspect I'll need in the middle of the winter). It's in Mt. Pleasant, which is pleasing since it sort of hurt my tummy thinking about moving out of the area. But I can't help but think I acted rash.

Worse comes to worst, I can just try to get out of the lease, right? The guy who is leaving was only there for 9 months (a trial separation situation; they're getting back together). The landlord seems really nice and above the board, and the place is immaculate and well-maintained. I need to stop thinking about money. Money is the root of most of my anxiety/stress.

Also, I can't have parties. It's in my lease. Not like I do anyway, really. I'm pretty sure a book club meeting isn't really a party, nor is hostessing a dinner. In two years, I've only hostessed two actual parties, so... I'm probably not going to have to worry about that. The other place I looked at is allegedly loud, both inside and out, and is beside the alley, so I'm hoping to talk myself out of the other place soon. The bedroom was small, there wasn't much storage space, the fridge was small and odd, the kitchen was cramped... See, easy.

When I talked to my friend mere hours after the signing, he just told me to stop worrying. How does that happen?

Next: I just have to worry about how I'm going to move my stuff.